.happy 16th anniversary, dear

16 months. Not 16 years. I wish. Hope to be with my darling forever, whatever it takes. I'm sure there'll always be rainbow and sunshine after the storm, even the heaviest one.

And to celebrate it (yes, every month) we went for a dinner at Tony Roma's. As usual, it never fail to satifsfy me.

*thank you for being so wonderful

.through the years

Today, I almost cry hearing this song. Don't know why. This is not the first time I hear the song, but somehow, today I pay attention more on the lyrics and it suqeezes my heart. This song has a very deep meaning for me.

I can't remember when you weren't there
When I didn't care for anyone but you
I swear we've been through everything there is
Can't imagine anything we've missed
Can't imagine anything the two of us can't do

Through the years, you've never let me down
You turned my life around, the sweetest days I've found
I've found with you ... through the years
I've never been afraid, I've loved the life we've made
And I'm so glad I've stayed, right here with you
Through the years

I can't remember what I used to do
Who I trusted whom, I listened to before
I swear you've taught me everything I know
Can't imagine needing someone so
But through the years it seems to me
I need you more and more

Through the years, through all the good and bad
I knew how much we had, I've always been so glad
To be with you ... through the years
It's better everyday, you've kissed my tears away
As long as it's okay, I'll stay with you
Through the years

Through the years, when everything went wrong
Together we were strong, I know that I belonged
Right here with you ... through the years
I never had a doubt, we'd always work things out
I've learned what love's about, by loving you
Through the years

*let's work things out, baby!

...

saat hujan dan angin menerpa
padamu aku diam berlindung
hangatmu selalu menemani

namun atapmu bukan tak bercela
lama kelamaan meretak disana sini
tertimpa beban yang terus menghimpit
dan aku tak seutuhnya terlindung

ragu
bimbang

inginku melangkah mencari atap lain
satu kaki sudah kuayun ke luar
kuedarkan pandang sekali lagi
sebelum terucap kata berpisah

tercekat
terdiam

di setiap sudut kulihat kenangan
garis-garis yang kulalui bersamamu
kuurungkan niatku untuk pergi
lalu aku memilih tinggal disini

semua retakan yang ada
akan kututup dengan hati
hingga aku dapat selamanya
berlindung padamu

*hope u'll always be my shelter

.love is...

...everything it's cracked up to be...it really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for... - Erica Jong

Reading that line makes me think, have I risked anything for love? I think so. I hope so. Because I love my love so much. Thanks to my stubborn character, it makes me stand still through all these conditions. Thanks to my love, for always believing in me, that whatever it takes, I will always fight for love, as long as love is here to fight for me too. Thanks to God, for giving me the strength, for giving me the love, though sometimes love share not only smiles but also tears.

*i believe one day everything will turn out just right

.badly needed

Burger King Shrimp Salad.

*any delivery from Singapore to Jakarta?

.why

Why do you hate me so much? Why? Hmpf, I'll make sure that one day you will feel sorry for what you've done and said.

*just wait!