.here i am

In my new office. I feel so comfortable even from day one. My colleagues are fun and friendly. The office itself is wide and homey, specially in Creative Division. We don't need to act too formal to the boss, maybe because some of them are expats.

My main focus here is redesigning the in-house magazine: MoneyTalks. Hopefully there will be more magazines coming and not all of them are finance. Hehe.

*hope this will last longer

.new job

Good news! Got a new job, so am officially un-jobless. I will be working with one of my closest friend's in college. The interview went well, it almost didn't feel like an interview at all. Boss is really nice, an expat.

So, I will start next week. Wish me luck.

*can't wait to be start

.happy 16th anniversary, dear

16 months. Not 16 years. I wish. Hope to be with my darling forever, whatever it takes. I'm sure there'll always be rainbow and sunshine after the storm, even the heaviest one.

And to celebrate it (yes, every month) we went for a dinner at Tony Roma's. As usual, it never fail to satifsfy me.

*thank you for being so wonderful

.through the years

Today, I almost cry hearing this song. Don't know why. This is not the first time I hear the song, but somehow, today I pay attention more on the lyrics and it suqeezes my heart. This song has a very deep meaning for me.

I can't remember when you weren't there
When I didn't care for anyone but you
I swear we've been through everything there is
Can't imagine anything we've missed
Can't imagine anything the two of us can't do

Through the years, you've never let me down
You turned my life around, the sweetest days I've found
I've found with you ... through the years
I've never been afraid, I've loved the life we've made
And I'm so glad I've stayed, right here with you
Through the years

I can't remember what I used to do
Who I trusted whom, I listened to before
I swear you've taught me everything I know
Can't imagine needing someone so
But through the years it seems to me
I need you more and more

Through the years, through all the good and bad
I knew how much we had, I've always been so glad
To be with you ... through the years
It's better everyday, you've kissed my tears away
As long as it's okay, I'll stay with you
Through the years

Through the years, when everything went wrong
Together we were strong, I know that I belonged
Right here with you ... through the years
I never had a doubt, we'd always work things out
I've learned what love's about, by loving you
Through the years

*let's work things out, baby!

...

saat hujan dan angin menerpa
padamu aku diam berlindung
hangatmu selalu menemani

namun atapmu bukan tak bercela
lama kelamaan meretak disana sini
tertimpa beban yang terus menghimpit
dan aku tak seutuhnya terlindung

ragu
bimbang

inginku melangkah mencari atap lain
satu kaki sudah kuayun ke luar
kuedarkan pandang sekali lagi
sebelum terucap kata berpisah

tercekat
terdiam

di setiap sudut kulihat kenangan
garis-garis yang kulalui bersamamu
kuurungkan niatku untuk pergi
lalu aku memilih tinggal disini

semua retakan yang ada
akan kututup dengan hati
hingga aku dapat selamanya
berlindung padamu

*hope u'll always be my shelter

.love is...

...everything it's cracked up to be...it really is worth fighting for, being brave for, risking everything for... - Erica Jong

Reading that line makes me think, have I risked anything for love? I think so. I hope so. Because I love my love so much. Thanks to my stubborn character, it makes me stand still through all these conditions. Thanks to my love, for always believing in me, that whatever it takes, I will always fight for love, as long as love is here to fight for me too. Thanks to God, for giving me the strength, for giving me the love, though sometimes love share not only smiles but also tears.

*i believe one day everything will turn out just right

.badly needed

Burger King Shrimp Salad.

*any delivery from Singapore to Jakarta?

.why

Why do you hate me so much? Why? Hmpf, I'll make sure that one day you will feel sorry for what you've done and said.

*just wait!

.an old friend of mine

My mom's best friend's daughter is getting married and I go to their house today to help them on a Chinese ceremony called Sangjit. We used to play together when we're kids, and now she's about to enter a another chapter of her life. I feel happy for her.

On our way back home, we get a news that my uncle's wife has just gave birth to their first son. So we go straight to the hospital and take a glimpse to the cute baby. Congratulations! Hope this baby will bring more happiness, luck and love to the family.

*hope my turn is coming soon

.bye bye magazine

I'm not working at CosmoGIRL! anymore. Kinda missing it actually. The hectic, the deadline, the yummy dirty snacks in front of the office, the crazy colleagues, the super annoying advertorial (damn, it's always been me who designed that), the sudden-free-market and many more.

But I don't feel comfortable with the condition lately so I think it's time to move on. For now I'm still enjoying my free time, working for my dad. Come to the office at 9am, then leave at 4pm. Lovely. Sometimes it's a bit boring but I think I deserve a 'rest'.

Will be looking for a new job in the next 2 months.

*any offer?